Rules or Relationship

Happy May

Yes it is may in Oklahoma, but feels more like March. We still find ways to get outside and enjoy God's creation, sports:) We were outside the other day and our 3 year old was playing golf and I noticed every time he would hit the ball, he had to bend down and stare at the ball like he is doing in this picture...every time. I finally asked,

"Case, what are you doing?"

"I am staring at the ball, momma." 

"Ok, but why are you staring at the ball?"

"That's what all the people do when they play golf."

"Do you know why they bend down like that?"

"Yes! to make sure the golf ball is still there before they hit it"

Yes...the boy loves his sports and yes the boy loves his games...but no, the boy doesn't know all the rules or the reason for the rules of his sports and he is OK with that. Are we?

I have been reading the book of Mark and read the story in Mark 2: 23-28. The religious leaders known as the Pharisees, are not really excited about Jesus at this time because he was "breaking their rules"... ironically, the rules that were suppose to honor the very God they were talking to in person. In this particular story, Jesus was walking with his disciples through some grain fields and they began eating some of the grain. The Pharisees said to Jesus, "Look, why are they breaking the law by harvesting grain on the Sabbath?"

They are referring to one of the 10 Commandments...you know the "Big Rules", that says "Remember the Sabbath and keep it Holy." (Exodus 20:8) Jesus replied, "The Sabbath was made to meet the needs of the people and not people to meet the requirements of the Sabbath."

Oh How I love that...the sabbath was created as a day of rest not a day of requirements. God knows our minds need rest. God knows our bodies need rest. God knows our hearts need rest. And we find this rest in Him not in keeping the rules. How often do we do things because of the rules of God and not the Love for God. We might go to church and check off that rule for the week. We might not take a drink of alcohol and check off that rule for the week. We might not say a dirty word and we check off that rule for the week. (Still working on this rule) We make sure to follow all these rules when all we are doing is staring at a golf ball because that is what we think we are suppose to do. We become religious when we forget the reason for the rules. When we focus on the rules we forget the relationship. When we focus on the rules we forget the risen savior. The rules were made to protect us...our hearts, mind, and bodies. The rules were made to bring us closer to God not further away from him. The rules were to made to show us that it was impossible to keep them which is why we needed a savior...we have a savior yet we still keep focusing all our efforts on keeping the rules. Jesus says it this way, "These people honor me with their lips, but their hearts are far from me. Their worship is a farce, for they teach man-made ideas as commands from God." The Sarah Version would interpret it this way, "these people honor me with their rule following, but their hearts are far from me. Their rule focusing is a fake act of worship because they are man-driven and not God given.

Now some people will read this and believe I have given them free reign to do whatever they want when they want...But once again, the focus is on rules, or lack thereof, and not the relationship. There are a lot of things I do like church, bible study, dates with Jesus etc not because i value the rules of God but because I value the relationship with God. And there are a lot of things I don't do like watch certain shows or movies, listen to certain songs, read certain books etc. not because I am that good, but because I am that bad. I know I have so many struggles and weaknesses and if I do those certain things it affects my relationship with Jesus. Those things may not affect you like they do me. And there may be things you don't do that do because it doesn't affect me. It's all about Jesus...loving Jesus, praising Jesus and worshipping Jesus. So I would encourage you to look at your life and ask..."Am I staring at golf ball because that is what I think I am suppose to do" or are you actually studying the relationship between the ball, the putting green, and the putter so you can make the best possible play in this game we called life."

Moving again?

Being married to a coach, we have moved a lot. And I hate moving. Don't get me wrong, I love the new experiences and meeting new people it is the actual loading the boxes, taping the boxes, marking the boxes, moving the boxes, unloading the boxes, and removing the boxes. Boo! It is a lot of work to move. But as much as I have moved physically it doesn't compare with the amount of times I have been moved by God spiritually. When I hear people's stories, I am moved by God. When I go to church, i am moved by God. When I pray, I am moved by God. When I listen to a certain song, I am moved by God. But God has taught me something about moving through a man in the Bible by the name of King Nebuchadnezzer.
Let me just give you a little background on him. He was the King of Babylon and took of Jerusalem which means he also ruled over God's people including Daniel, Shadrach, Meschach, and Abednego. He was a king that liked to be king. He made statues of himself so that people would bow down and worship him. He had a whole group of magicians, enchanters and sorcerers that surrounded him. Needless to say, he did not worship the one true God, the God of Abraham, Isaac,and Jacob. But as I was reading about him in Daniel, I noticed something...there were so many times he was moved by God, but not changed by God. In Daniel 2, God helps Daniel interpret the King's Dream, something none of his magicians could do. The king said, "Truly, your God is God of gods and Lord of Kings and revealer of mysteries for you have been able to reveal this mystery." (Daniel 2:47). But in Chapter 3 he builds a statue of Gold that everyone in the land will bow down and worship when they hear the music. He was moved by God, but not changed by God. When Shadrach, Meschach, and Abednego refuse to bow down to the statue because of their faith in God, the King throws them into the furnace to be burned. When God saves them, the king says, "How great are his signs, how mighty his wonders!His kingdom is an everlasting kingdom...." (Daniel 4:3) Oh but he continued his doing his own thing in his own way...not willing to "break off from his sins and practice rigteousness" (Daniel 4:27). Once again, he was moved by God, but no changed by God.
Can you relate? I can! I do this all the time! I will listen to a sermon in church or a podcast sermon and I am moved by God. I think, "man, that was awesome." But I leave never being anything different, never changing my ways. I read books like Not a fan, crazy love, Christian Athiest and think, "Wow, those where great books", but do I ever let God do more than just move me? God doesn't want to move me, he wants to change me. If we are not changing then we are not growing. I want to grow, therefore i must go through the growing pains of change. I have to address my own sin and change. I have to address my own pride and change. I have to address my own insecurities and change. I don't want to just be moved by God, I want to be changed by God. When I was writing all this in my journal, I wrote down four stages God takes me through during this process of growing closer to him. First, I have to know with everything in me that I am LOVED by Him. I have gotten stuck so many times as this first stage. I have to know with everything in me there is nothing I can do to make God love me more and there is nothing I can do to make God love me less. I AM LOVED! Second, I have to be MOVED by him through his word, his messages, his people. My heart has to be open to God and not hardened by the things of this world. Third, I have to be CHANGED by him. I have to be willing to really ask God to change my heart, change my ways, change me. Fourth, I have to go through all these stages before I can be USED by him. LOVED, MOVED, CHANGED, and USED. As followers of Jesus, I believe we all have to go through this process. I don't know where you are...maybe you are stuck at believing that you are LOVED. Maybe you are stuck and ok with just being MOVED by God, like King Nebuchadnezzar, but there is no growing relationship with Jesus. Maybe you are in the painful process of being CHANGED by God. Or maybe you have reached the final step of being USED by God. Wherever you are, don't stop! Each phase is a struggle, each phase there is pain, but each phase there is more of God...more of his goodness, more of his faithfulness, more of his love, more of his mercy, more of his grace. MORE of HIM!
King Nebuchadnezzer was lost, but was found. He was prideful, but was humbled. He was moved, but he was also changed. We read in Daniel 5 after God stripped him of his kingdom and left him with nothing but God... it was there, he was changed by God. In Daniel 5:37, he says, "Now I, Nebuchadnezzar, praise and extol and honor the king of heaven, for his works are right and his ways are just: and those who walk in pride he is able to humble."
The same God that changed LOVED, MOVED, CHANGED, and USED King Nebuchadnezzar is the same God that wants to LOVE, MOVE, CHANGE, and USE you and me!!

Stuck in a slump

Slump is a dirty word in the sports world especially in the world of baseball and softball. As an athlete, you never want to be in a slump because that means you aren't hitting very well or if you are pitcher, everyone is hitting well. The thing about being in a slump is you usually have no idea how you got there and no idea how to get out.

I don't play baseball or softball, but do go through slumps. It's those times when your life just keeps giving you curve balls. During my slumps, I get tired, overwhelmed, impatient, discouraged, lonely as a mom, as a wife, as a friend, as a person in ministry. I just can't seem to do it all or do anything well, at least. I am learning what leads to my slumps and how to get out of them. During one of my slumps, I had just come out of a very taxing ministry season and I was drained spiritually, mentally, physically, and emotionally. I opened my bible and was needing to hear from Jesus when I read this....

"I know all the things you do. I have seen your hard work and your patient endurance. I know you don't tolerate evil people....you have patiently suffered for me without quitting."

I remember reading this thinking, "Oh God, thank you. You do see everything I have done for your kingdom and you do see me." THEN, I continued reading...

"But I have this complaint against you. You don't love me or each other as you did at first!. Look how far you have fallen! Turn back to me and do the works you did at first. If you don't repen,. I will come and remove your lampstand from its place among the churches."

Oh crap...he had seen everything I had done, but didn't care because I had neglected the reason why I did them, HIM. I had neglected my first love, HIM. I had done so much for him without HIM. As my pastor describes it, I had become a full time minister, part time follower of Christ. I had become a full time mom and wife and part time follower of Christ. And he made it very clear, He would have no problem removing my lampstand from its place or in my case, removing me from ministry if it brought me back to him and seeking His face full time. He didn't need my ministry, he wanted me. For you, you may be a full time mom, part time follwer of Christ and you are in a slump. You may be a full time teacher and a part time follower of Christ and you are in a slump.  You may be a full time volunteer and a part time follower of Christ and you are in a slump. You may be a full time problem fixer and a part time follower of Christ and you are in a slump. When we get these roles reversed is when we are likely to go into a slump.

So How do we get out of the slump? It doesn't matter whether it is a slump in your marriage, a slump with your relationship with Jesus, a slump in your job, a slump with your kids....we get out of them the same way. We "Turn back to Jesus and do the works we did at first."
It's kinda like when my kids are trying to get their zipper zipped on their coats and it the zipper gets stuck (which is every day) and I tell them the same thing every time, "Go backwards in order to go forwards." When we get stuck in a slump we must go backwards in order to go forwards. We must go back and do what we did at first....if'its in your marriage, go on dates again, write love notes, send sweet messages, all the stuff you did when you were first dating .If it's your children, play with them, read a book to them, all the things we couldn't wait to do before we had children.  If it's your relationship with Jesus, go on dates with Jesus. Get in His word and read His sweet messages to you. Read His Word to change, not to finish. Listen to praise music and let them be God's love songs to you. Do all the things you did at first when you couldn't get enough of Jesus.

Everyone goes through slumps, so please know you are not alone. We want to put on the face that everything is alright all the time. We need to be real with each other and the times we are going through our slumps so that we can help each other through them. Will you be real today? I will start...

"Hi my name is Sarah Roberts and I struggle with slumps"

Ouch...God may have just hit me in the mouth

Well, it is that week again....that week you either love or hate. It is the week that the fact that you are single, divorced, or widowed is so highlighted that you feel as though you are walking around with a giant neon sign announcing your relationship status. Or maybe each year you build up in your mind, that because you are married or in a relationship, that it is going to be a day of lavishing you with cards, roses, homemade candlelight dinner, just like it is at my house every year (ha ha...just kidding), just to be disappointed at the end of the day because it didn't live up to your expectation. Well, I have been studying the book of Galatians and I got punched in the mouth with some truth,so I am just paying it forward...you're welcome:)

 There are ways that we need to focus on ourselves but tend to focus on others...

This includes Sin. Yes Sin. We all have it but nobody likes to address it...well their own anyway. It's easier, less painful, less uncomfortable to focus on other people's sin rather than addressing our own. It works out better for us if we can keep the attention on Mary Lou who just got divorced instead of addressing the fact that we secretly are addicted to pain killers, shopping, attention, etc. Jesus knew we would struggle with this so he said this, "And why worry about a speck in your friend's eye when you have a log in your own? how can you think of saying to your friend, 'Let me help you get rid of that speck in your eye.' when you can't see past the log in your own eye? Hypocrite! First, get rid of the log in your own eye; then you will see well enough to deal with the speck in your friends eye." Matthew 7:3-5
And before you start pointing the finger because you feel people judge you, believe me you do it too. We all do...every single one of us. We all judge people, and we usually judge people based on things we don't struggle with. God wants us to focus on ourselves when it comes to sin...address our own sin, issues, and problems. If you are like me, you have plenty to deal with, you don't have time to deal with other people's sin.
We love to Covet. (Galatians 6:4)We love to want what everyone else has. Instead of focusing on ourselves and what God has blessed us with, we focus on what God has given everybody else. Comparison kills contentment, which means we are happy with who we are and what we have until  we see what somebody else has.  For me, this happens a lot with parenting. I am confident and love how I am as a mom and what we do with the kids until I see someone who has made an entire zoo full of animals made out of used toilet paper rolls...then I think "I suck." Once again, God doesn't want us focusing on other people when He's trying to shape us into HIS Image not everyone else's.

There are ways we need to focus on others but tend to focus on ourselves

We have taken the word serve and made it into how can people serve "me." (Galatians 6: 8-10) I know that sounds harsh, but we are all guilty of it. We may pout because we didn't get the recognition we thought we deserved. We may be bitter because no one has said thank you for everything you have done for them. What started out as service ends up being..."What about me?" "they aren't meeting my needs?" "where is my 'me' time?" And the focus is on you instead of others. We live in a world that says "Do want makes you happy," "As long as you re happy?"....all because we think the world is here for us, when in fact we are here to serve the world in the name of Jesus. If the King of Kings says, "I did not come to be served, but to serve..." I think we should follow His lead. 

Love...we spend our entire lives looking for people who can love us. I get so discouraged reading facebook and twitter the week of Valentine's day because it is just depressing how people talk about not having anyone to love them or how their husband dropped the ball this year.  Since when did Valentines day become about who all can show you love? The creator of the Universe is so madly in love with you that He died for you. You are part of the greatest love story in the world. How about we make this Valentines day about how YOU can show love to OTHERS. Maybe there is a widow who is alone for the first time in 25 years and you could take her out for dinner. Maybe there is a mom who is spending their first Valentines day without their child this year and you could take a teddy bear to the family in honor of their child. Maybe there is a woman who's husband is fighting for our country's freedom and could use some flowers from Jesus this week. You are loved...now go spread it!

There is a fine line between focusing on ourselves and focusing on others. We are called to do both, but so often we get the lines crossed on which is which. So how do we walk the thin line? With Jesus of Course. Jesus said, is "Love the Lord your God with all your heart, all your soul, and your mind. This is the first and greatest commandment. A second is equally important: 'Love your neighbor as yourself."  Love your neighbor as yourself." When we love God first, it's possible to keep 2nd and 3rd in line.

The Secret

I absolutely love secrets, the good kind. The secrets of surprise birthday parties, or the secrets of a pregnancy, the secret of someone about to propose. I love the excitement, the build-up to the happiness that I know is about to occur. Although I love these kind of secrets, I suck at keeping them. If you want to know what I got you for your birthday or for Christmas...just ask me I will tell you. You can ask anyone in my family, I get so excited that I just have to share right now or if I don't say anything it is written all over my face that I need to tell you something that is going to make you so happy! The excitement is just too much for me and I think you need to know the secret now. Well, I have a secret. Yep! I have found the secret to being content with whatever I have....well, actually Paul found it and shared it.  I know right? That is a pretty big secret...that is the secret we would all like to know...the secret not be driven by the things of this world or not having our emotions depend on our circumstances. Wouldn't you like that...I know I would. I would love to have self-control when I go into a store and see some boots and not feel like I have to have them righ now and if I don't get them I just won't fit in to the world. I would love to go through a day and no matter what happens in the day whether my work day has been overwhelming or my kids are not obeying me, or my husband had a bad meeting with a parent, that I would still have joy. I would love to go through every circumstance, every up and down, and  handle it in such a way that people say "there is something different about her. I would love the secret to that life. Wouldn't you? Wouldn't you love to go to the fridge and seeing there is no food there and one more day until pay day and still have joy. Wouldn't you love to go to the fridge and it be completely stocked and be filled with so much joy because you know that that doesn't happen for everyone. Wouldn't you love to answer a phone call from your children's principle and no matter what they say on the other end you know that you can still have joy. Woulnd't you love to know that when you are waiting for that phone call from your Doctor to tell you if you have cancer or not, that whatever news you get, you are filled with joy and peace. This secret is worth more than gold...it's the key to all joy in this world...holy crap I am getting so excited to tell you. I am excited to tell you because I visit with people everyday who walk around completely defeated. Their job sucks...therefore they have no joy. Their marriage sucks...therefore they have no joy. Their relationship with their family sucks....therefore they have no joy. The circumstances of this broken world has just completetly overwhelmed them and they walk around completely defeated. But I know the secret....the secret to change all that....the secret to joy in any circumstance....the secret to peace that passes all understanding. Are you ready...are you sure....it's a big secret....here it goes....

Paul writes in Philippians 4:11-13: "...For I have learned how to be content with whatever I have. I know how to live on almost nothing or with everything. I have learned the secret of living in every situation, whether it is with a full stomach or empty, with plenty or little. For I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength."

Did you catch it? Did you catch the secret? It is easy to miss it
J
The Secret is....JESUS!!!

For some of you this might be a let down...you might be thinking "Well of course it is Jesus....I have been a Christian my whole life....that is the sunday school answer...Yes, I asked Jesus to be my Savior when I was 9 and still feel down, alone, and defeated...isn't there another answer to this riddle of finding joy in our life"
NOPE! That is the secret...as a follower of Christ you hold the very key, they key to all the power in the world with one relationship, with one name, with one person: Jesus.

It's kinda like in the movie Kung Fu Panda....the key to defeating the enemy of the world was in the dragon scroll and only the dragon warrior could read the dragon scroll. Once, the unlikely dragon warrior, PO the Panda opened the dragon scroll to find the secret...it was blank. After feeling defeated, he finally figured it out, the secret to defeating the enemy lied in him the whole time. 

I think it is time followers of Jesus, Christians, start understanding the power that comes with having Jesus in their life. He is not just heaven insurance...he is the secret to living this life with love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, and self-control. You can do ALL things through Jesus who gives you strength! When bad things happen you CAN find joy because you know that Jesus works all things to the good (Romans 8:28)...even the bad. When you are struggling with your work, children, or spouse, you CAN find joy because you know that if we do not give up we WILL reap a harvest of blessing if we don't give up (Galatians 6:9) There is power in Jesus to save your marriage, there is power in Jesus to mend a broken relationship, there is Power in Jesus to have a winning season, there is Power in Jesus to overcome an addiction, there is Power in Jesus to overcome the hurts and pain of this world. You see, Jesus isn't just our Savior from Hell, but our Source of joy and peace in all circumstances on earth!

There is a reason Jesus said to pray this in the Lord's Prayer, "...Your kingdom come, your will be done on earth as it is in heaven...." We can have on earth what we will have in heaven....That is the secret! We CAN do ALL things THROUGH JESUS because He gives us the strength.

Life without an *

In 2001 a movie came out called 61* which was about the 1960 Major League Baseball season where Mickey Mantle and Roger Maris' pursued Babe Ruth's home run record. They were teammates playing for the New York Yankees and while the New York fans and media were pulling for the popular and personable Mantle, a long-time Yankee. The quieter Maris was viewed as an outsider, aloof and unworthy. As they got closer to the record, MLB Commissioner Ford Frick, who also happened to be Babe Ruth's admirer and ghostwriter, makes a decision. Unless the record is broken in 154 games (the same number Ruth played in 1927), the new record would be listed separately from Ruth's record, because MLB's season is now 162 games long thus making it a record with an *. Maris did break the record in the last game of the season and for the longest time his record was a 61* until 1991 where they decided records were records and they would not be separated.

Many of us walk around as followers of Christ*, believing we are forgiven*, knowing that we will get to spend eternity in heaven someday*. We view ourselves as an "outsider, aloof and unworthy" of taking part in any blessings that God may want to impart on us or our family. We believe God can do great things, BUT just for other people. God can do great things BUT just not for me. Our entire walk with Christ has an * by it because we think "I am not good enough," "I can't live up to His standards", "He could never forgive me for what I have done so I work a little bit harder for it",  "If he knew me and what I have done, he couldnt love me let alone die for me", "Yes I know I get to be his follower, but I am sure I must walk around with an asterisk*" Right?  Wrong!
Because Christ lives in you, nothing else needs to be added, not even an asterisk*. You are a full-fledged child of God!

Romans 8:14-16 says, "For all who are led by the Spirit of God are children of God.
¹⁵ So you have not received a spirit that makes you fearful slaves. Instead, you received God’s Spirit when he adopted you as his own children. Now we call him, “Abba, Father.” ¹⁶ For his Spirit joins with our spirit to affirm that we are God’s children.
We may say that we are children of God, but we live as though we are slaves...slaves to sin, slaves to shame, slaves to unworthiness, slaves to doubt all making us children of God*

Whenever I am walking around with the asterisk*, I find comfort in the Story of David. David loved God, followed God, obeyed God, but after some of the decisions he made (adultery, murder just to name a few) God could have put an asterisk* after everything David did after that. He was a great man of God*, But...., He loved me*, But...., He obeyed me,*...Most of the time...

But He did none of that...instead in Acts 13:22 it says, "After removing Saul, he made David their King. He testified concerning him: 'I have found David son of Jesse a man after my own heart; he will do everything I want him to do.'"
That's right God, after everything David did, called him "a man after my own heart." Oh how I love that!
God wants to remove the * from your life today! I don't know what it is for you, but it could be the one thing that is holding you back from all that God wants to do through you. Maybe your * is guilt for your past, maybe your * is feeling inadequate, maybe your * is unforgiveness for someone else. Whatever has popped in your head while reading this, I urge you to stop what you are doing and pray...pray to take the asterisk* away:)  What Christ did on the cross was enough for you and for me!

If I can pray for you in any way please let me know! Here is to a New Year and living Life with out an *!!!

Heartbroken Christmas

As I write this blog post it is with a heavy heart. A heart that is just broken over the tragedy in Newtown, Conn at Sandy Hook Elementary school. When I heard the news, I was the parent that went and picked up my kids early from school just so I can hold them. As I saw each one of them walk down the hall: Cale-8, Chloe-6, Case-3, I began to cry...and I haven't really stopped. Yes, there has been momentary times of laughter and fun, but then I would find myself just weeping. I cried when I saw them, I cried when I hugged them, I cried because I didn't want to let them go.  I read different people's posts about not talking about it much with your kids or controlling your emotions with your kids so they can see how strong Jesus is in you. I even had a mom ask me "Why are you crying? Did you know someone there?" She wasn't being rude, she was just curious. I did talk about it with my kids....I have shown my kids a lot of emotion...why was I so upset, I didn't know anyone involved?....Is my faith weak? Does showing so much emotion mean I don't trust in my Jesus?

So many questions about the "why's" of this tragedy and so many questions about the "how" we should handle it. I don't know the "whys" and I don't know the right "hows" but I do know the God who understands it all and I turn to His Word and His Words to provide comfort.

I turned to the story of Jesus, Mary, Martha, and Lazarus in John 11:1-43...
Lazarus had become very sick and the sisters had sent Jesus a message to return to that Jesus could heal him. Instead, Jesus did not come and stayed for 2 more days. By the time Jesus returned to Bethany, Lazarus had been dead for 4 days. Mary and Martha approached Jesus with the same statement..."If you had been here, my brother would not have died." They wanted to know why. They wanted to know why this had to happen. They wanted to know why did he allow this. They wanted to know why he didn't come to their rescue. Why? Why? Why? Sound familiar?
Scripture says in verse 33, "When Jesus saw her weeping and the Jews who had come along side with her also weeping, he was deeply moved in spirit, and troubled....(vs 35) Jesus wept." We learn in the story that Jesus then walks to the tomb and raises Lazarus from the dead.

I find comfort in knowing our God wept with those who lost a loved one.He knew His power...he knew His strength...He wasn't sad because Lazarus died:Afterall,  He knew that He was about to bring him back to life. No...He cried because those he loved were heartbroken. He showed emotion and therefore showed his heart. I believe on December 15, Jesus cries once again. He cries, not because of the children...he is holding them. He cries because of His other children...the parents, the grandparents, the aunts and uncles, husbands, friends, co-workers, a nation that is utterly heartbroken over this tragedy. We cry therefore he cries. Our hearts are broken, therefore His heart is broken. He knows that there will be good come of this tragedy yet... he weeps with us. He knows that His goodness will win over evil yet... he weeps with us. I find comfort in knowing that I can weep because my Savior weeps. I can be emotional because those WERE my kids...those were your kids. I saw my baby girl's eyes in one the victim's pictures....I saw my sweet boy's smile in the one of the victim's pictures...I saw my baby boy's cheeks in one of the victim's pictures. I saw my children in every single one one of those pictures and I wept.

I find comfort in the words that Jesus said to Martha in her grief, "I am the resurrection and the life. He who believes in me will live, even though he dies and whoever lives and believes in me will never die. Do you believe this?"

I dropped my children off at school today and I did it with tears, because God asked me once again..."Do you trust me with your children? Do you believe that if they never come home today...I still have them? Do you believe that even if they are gone on this earth...you will see them again. Do you believe this?" YES Jesus I do!!!

For more about trusting God with our children...you can read my Christmas blog post right before this one...