Trying to explain what God has been doing in me over the past month would be hard because, to be honest, I wasn't sure. There is a song with the line..."it seems like its chaos, but somehow there is peace." This seemed to explain it pretty well until I read a story in Mark 9 that explained it perfectly. Let me set this up for you...A man comes to Jesus and tells him that his son is possessed with a spirit that affects his speech and makes him go into
seizures. He then goes on to say that the disciples tried, but could not help the boy. Jesus says,
"Oh unbelieving generation, how long shall stay with you?
How long shall put up with you? Bring the boy to me."....vs(21) Jesus
asks the father, "How long has he been like this?" "From childhood,"
he answered. "It has often thrown him into fire or water to kill him
But if you can do anything, take pity on us and help us."
"If you can?" Said Jesus. "Everything is possible for him who believes."
Immediately, the boy's father said, "I do believe; help me overcome
my unbelief."
I am part of an "unbelieving generation" that still questions God and his goodness everyday. A generation that thinks we were put on this earth just to be "happy." A generation that thinks we are entitled to anything and everything the world has to offer. And when those things do not happen, we question the goodness of God. Honestly, I think we all do. Maybe you have prayed and God isn't answering your prayer the way you thought he should. Maybe you have asked God to remove you from a situation and you are still there. Maybe the relationship you thought God had for you, isn't working out quite like you had imagined. We all deal with unbelief in almost every area of our life, but everyday we must choose to believe that God is good even when our circumstances are not.
My favorite part of the story is when Jesus says, "if you can?" It is almost like he is saying, "you have got to be kidding me. I am the God of the freaking universe...and you are going to come at me with "if you can?"
We have to believe that God CAN do anything we ask of him, but more important, believe that when he doesn't, it is because His way is different....it is better. Isaiah 55:8 says, "For my thoughts are not your thoughts, and my ways are not your ways declares the Lord." When life is hard as a mom and wife, I want to believe in the goodness of God. When ministry get me overwhelmed, I want to believe in the goodness of God. When I am surrounded by what seems like the impossible I want to believe the "Possibles" of God.
Lord, I do believe...Help me overcome my unbelief:)
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Girl, the amount of times I have prayed that prayer. And still I struggle with it. I do want so desperately to believe, but on my terms. Nuh-uh. That's not the way He does things. He's working in me. His way, his timing, his will, his terms.
Oh Robin!!! Me too:) The "my terms" is exactly how I try to do it as well:) Thanks for the encouragement...I am glad he is working in others like he is me:)
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